After having the most successful month I’ve ever had in my sex work endeavors, August hit hard. I had plans of continuing to ride my wave of personal success into another month and continue strategizing for how to make that wave go long term. August started with so much great potential.
But in the end…
It was awful.
The first week or so was great. My parents were visiting. I’d been planning shoots for the month. I was ready to go.
And then cute BF’s mom’s health took a drastic drop. And then another. We thought she’d have a few months left. He thought he’d be able to see her a couple more times. We got the call on a Monday morning that he needed to get to Florida ASAP. My parents were still in town and I couldn’t join until after they left. That was the plan.
He made it back to Florida Monday night/early Tuesday morning and after about 30 minutes of getting to see her, she was gone. Cute BF and his mom were really close and he’s been heartbroken.
So Tuesday morning as I’m heading to my attorney’s office to take care of some landlord issues we’ve been having, I’m getting onto the highway right by the Strip when the car in front of me brakes really hard. I did the same to avoid hitting them, but the car behind me didn’t brake fast enough and ended up rear ending me.
I was a mess. I’d spent the morning crying over the loss of a wonderful woman only to end up in the worst car accident I’ve ever been in.
Being unable to drive the car and being in so much pain, I was taken to the hospital where I had a series of X-rays and a CAT scan done.
A week later, I was on a plane back to Florida for the celebration of life. Not the reason I had hoped to go back to Florida for, but it is what it is. The next few days were bittersweet. I got to celebrate the life of my partner’s Mom, see so many wonderful people, and enjoy some things about Florida that I do miss (Tijuana Flats, Publix bakery, rain & thunderstorms….).
Upon my return from Florida, I pretty much immediately got sick. And stayed sick for about a week. Too sick to work, too sick to edit, too sick to do anything but sleep and blow my nose excessively.
I can’t tell you how many times during the month of August I had to give myself “it will all be ok” and “next month will be better” affirmations.
And so far, September has been so much better.
So. Much. Better.
I just got back from a weekend in San Diego (my first time ever visiting!). We had a much needed vacation together… Cute BF took me to the San Diego zoo then to the USS Midway. The weekend away was everything I needed. Recharging my mental batteries felt so good.
But that’s not all the great part of September… I’ve been back to work already, working hard to make some sexy new videos for my customers to enjoy! I hope you’ll check out (and buy!) some of my hardwork over at www.SydneyScreamsFetish.com
As always, thank you to my fans, customers and friends for sticking by and supporting me during the rough times. I appreciate you all!