1. What did you do in 2018 that you’d never done before?
I feel like I didn’t do a whole lot of noteworthy things in 2018, however I did manage to save money. I’ve never been good at saving money, but some stuff happened in 2018 that put into motion an urge to save. In the end, I unfortunately had to use what I had saved for that purpose, but at least I was prepared.

2. Did you keep your new years’ resolutions?
I didn’t make any resolutions

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
I don’t think so!

4. Did anyone close to you die?
Thankfully, not this year!

5. What countries did you visit?
Oh man, I had a very boring 2018. I didn’t leave the country at all.

6. What would you like to have in 2019 that you lacked in 2018?
So many things. Restored, stronger mental health being the biggest one.

7. What dates from 2018 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
The day I finally had the courage to leave. It really sucks that things got to this point, where separation was a necessity. My mental health wasn’t taken seriously. I, as a person with feelings and boundaries and ideas, wasn’t taken seriously. I wasn’t shown the respect I deserve. I wasn’t shown the compassion I deserve. I was taken for granted. And I will not be again, that’s for fucking sure.

8. What was your biggest achievement(s) of the year?
I’m sure there were several, but tbh, I don’t remember most of them. I think moving out of what had become a toxic living situation was the biggest achievement, which only really happened recently (as in, it just happened in December).

9. What was your biggest failure?
Sticking around through the emotional abuse, thinking it would somehow magically get better

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
Nothing super major, although I did have some knee & neck pain that my chiropractor was thankfully able to help with!

11. What was the best thing you bought?
It’s a tie between my new Canon M50 Mirrorless and my new bedroom set. Honestly, they’re both so great for entirely different reasons and purposes.

12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
Pretty much everyone who somehow made it out of 2018 alive. Seriously, this year was rough for a lot of people for a lot of reasons.

13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
Welp. My own, but also the behavior of the person who was closest to me 🙁

14. Where did most of your money go?
I managed to save a good portion of my money this year, which was amazing!! But then I subsequently spent all of that saved money on moving into my own place. Soooo, there’s that.

15. What did you get really, really, excited about?
Honestly? Nothing worth noting. There was a lot of building up excitement about things, only to be super let down by them.

16. What song will always remind you of 2018?
I hope nothing reminds me of 2018.

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
a) happier or sadder? I’d say sadder.
b) thinner or fatter? I haven’t stepped on a scale for a month now, so I’m not sure. I was on track to being thinner! But then life happened.
c) richer or poorer? Richer, I think.

18. What do you wish you’d done more of?
I wish I had done more taking care of my own needs and mental health, rather than shrinking away from both. I give so much of myself and I didn’t get that in return.

19. What do you wish you’d done less of?
I tried so hard to absorb the pain of someone else, only to come out feeling just as emotionally torn up as they are. I shouldn’t have. I should have put my foot down and put an end to the behavior sooner. I didn’t and honestly, I’m pretty unhappy that I didn’t. But hindsight is always 20/20 and I won’t let it happen again.

20. How will you be spending Christmas?
For a minute, I thought I’d spend Christmas in NC visiting my family since the thought of a Christmas alone was pretty fucking heartbreaking. I ended up staying in Vegas though, mainly because the stress (mentally, physically and financially) was just too much and I didn’t have it in me to put more stress on myself. I spent Christmas Eve at an event hosted by Pineapple Support and ModelHub, surrounded by fellow sex workers of different varieties. Christmas Day, I spent the day with a friend & my BF watching Star Wars and making/eating home made pizzas.

21. Did you fall in love in 2018?
Nope

22. How many one-night stands?
None

23. What was your favorite TV program?
Ah fuck… either Riverdale or Chilling Adventures of Sabrina

24. Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year?
I don’t think so!

25. What was the best book you read?
One of my fans sent me the Invincible compendiums and reading those were really great!! Discovering Monstress was also such a good read.

26. What was your greatest musical discovery?
That Ariana Grande is white. I had no idea. But also, when it comes to finding new music, I’m the worst person to ask.

27. What did you want and get?
I wanted to really grow my sex work business… and I did!!

28. What did you want and not get?
Overseas travel 🙁

29. What was your favorite film of this year?
Black Panther!!

30. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
I turned 31 and had a relatively quiet birthday. This year took such a toll on my mental health that I had no excitement about my birthday or about Christmas or anything, really.

31.What was one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
Being treated as an equal and with respect. To not be forced into a role I never wanted.

32. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2018?
Black everything. Or pastel black (grey!). Sometimes some floral things or splashes of color. But mostly black.

33. What kept you sane?
My cats and my friends.

34. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
Nobody?

35. What political issue stirred you the most?
FOSTA/SESTA

36. Who did you miss?
I missed all the friends I wasn’t able to spend more time with. I missed my BF being the person I fell in love with, who was replaced by a mean, condescending, disrespectful jerk, fueled by anger, sadness, and alcohol.

37. Who was the best new person you met? 
This answer bums me out, but I honestly didn’t meet a whole lot of new people. I finally met ManFury in person after however long chatting on the interwebs, so he was definitely the highlight of people I met this year.

38. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2018.
I have a couple!

• I deserve better.
• I can save money if I put my mind to it.

39. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year.
As usual, music is not my strongest area, so I don’t really have a good one. :/