Whew! Another year has flown by! As we get ready to kiss 2025 goodbye and ring in 2026, I thought it would be fun to share some of my wins (and losses), both personally and professionally. Heck, maybe I’ll even share some of my goals for 2026 here! In the past, I did a little questionnaire type thing, but I think it’s been a few years since I did that and ehhh… Besides, I spent 2025 acclimating to my new home country, so why not switch it up here too.
Frankly, sharing my wins and losses is sometimes a struggle for me. I don’t like to brag, nor do I like to let people know about my low points. Sharing makes me feel vulnerable and exposed, but one of my goals for 2025 was to open myself up more, both to my friends & family and to my fans. After years of building walls around my emotions & my personal life, 2025 was a year of personal growth for me, especially when it comes to connecting with people that I care about.
So, without further ado, let’s get down to it. I hope you enjoy learning a bit more about me and my business!
My top 5 selling categories have mainly stayed about the same for several years now. Based on my clips4sale video sales, Vore has outsold every other fetish category for me since 2019, when it ousted BBW as my top category. The biggest change this year is Giantess beating out BHM in my top 5 categories, though I admittedly switched from using BHM as a main category to using Feeder/Feedee instead, with the hope that I’d reach more feedees & gainers, rather than exclusively Big Handsome Men (BHM). As a queer, non-binary performer myself, I’ve wanted to expand my offerings to include content for queer people, women, enbies, and trans people. It’s not just the category that’s changed, I’ve always tried to make more of my content gender neutral across the board in 2025.
These 5 categories are what I call my “Core 5”, which I try to film the most of. Of the 5 categories, Vore is the category that I update on my clips4sale the most frequently. For me, even when I was updating my top 5 categories weekly, Vore was always so popular that it would generate double, if not triple, the revenue of the #2 top selling category. I’ve switched to only updating the other 4 categories every other week, instead of weekly. I haven’t seen much of a revenue drop from the other 4 categories, even though I don’t update them quite as often as I once did.
Now, my top 5 selling fetish videos are a surprise to me! Especially since 2 of the 5 videos are not in categories that are my top earning categories. Both Codi’s Bound Belly Worship and Codi’s Personal Stylist Gets Creepy feature my friend, Codi Vore, and fall under categories that aren’t on my Top 5 (belly button fetish and embarrassed naked female, respectively). Not only is Codi a fantastic performer, but she’s also just really fun to work with. She is definitely one of the performers that I miss working with now that I’m no longer living in the US. I did post a lot of other collaboration videos in 2025, and there were a few that I thought for sure would make the top 5 sellers list, but didn’t.
In case you are unsure of how I posted videos with performers who I haven’t worked with since before 2025, I’ll share one of my not so secret business tactics: I over film so that I have a backlog of content to last me for as long as possible. I don’t immediately post everything I film with another performer because 1-it’s not fair to the other performer, especially if we’re sharing content, 2-I knew I’d be moving so I stockpiled content with other performers so I’d have cushion in case it took me a while to connect with performers in my new country, and 3-I just don’t like to schedule my content like that. Part of my key to success is making my business as sustainable as possible, which means having a backlog in case of emergencies or long periods of time when I’m unable to film. Even with my solo content, I try to spread it out so I’m not flooding my store with videos of me wearing the same outfit or make-up, or using the same filming location.
One of the things I’ve really missed in 2025 is working with other performers though. I only worked with two other people this year, Jaq Quicksilver and Cassie Cummings. Because of some personal stuff going on, mainly me holding myself back, I wasn’t able to make it to any of the adult industry conventions in 2025, but I’m hoping to change that next year. There are a lot of performers and talents here in Europe, and while the internet is fine & dandy, things like social media shadowbans make it really difficult to find & connect with others. I know conventions and tradeshows will really help me find my people, all it takes is me no longer holding myself back!
One of the aspects of my job that I really focused on improving and growing in 2025 was my YouTube channel. I’ve had the channel for years and it’s mostly sat untouched, or at best, a couple videos added a year. This was actually a goal of mine for 2024, but the stress of planning my international move really prevented me from going anywhere with it. I didn’t start off on a great foot with updating my YouTube in 2025, but eventually I got to a point where I’d have weekly videos scheduled for weeks, if not months, in advance. I’ve primarily focused on toy reviews, as sex toys are something that I’m pretty passionate about and have a growing collection of.
Oddly enough, my top viewed video reviews in 2025 consisted of 4 videos that I published prior to 2025. The review of the Solina Toys Mega L, XL & XXL video was the only review published in 2025 that made the top 5 list. Solina Toys really came swooping in dominate not just my YouTube, but also here on my blog as well (which I’ll share in a moment).
Even though I didn’t publish weekly videos throughout the entire year, I still managed to publish 52 videos in 2025! Not all of my videos were toy reviews either. I also posted vlogs and try-on hauls, though to a much lesser extent. I’m hoping to do some more vlogs, try-on hauls, and travel vlogging in 2026, assuming I get to travel again in the new year. I also hope to do some longer, deep dive videos about a few topics I’ve had circulating in my head, but those will need to be scripted to ensure that I’m sticking to the topic instead of letting my ADHD take over. Which will also require that I get better with using my teleprompter. Time to do some practicing!!
Ok, now do you see what I mean?! Solina Toys absolutely dominated my top referring keywords list, so it was no surprise to me that they also held 3 of 5 spots of my top read reviews here on my blog. They’re really good dildos and affordably priced, plus they get a lot of use in my household. It seems fitting to me that they’re so popular. I’m also very happy to see that my guide to grinders has performed so strongly. It was a project that was a huge undertaking, and I put a lot of time & effort into curating the guide. Of all the content that I posted here on my blog in 2025, my grinder guide is certainly the piece I am most proud of creating. I’m hoping to do further guides in the future, as I have some ideas floating around in my head here too.
As someone who prefers to read reviews rather than watch them, I’ve wanted to really amp up my toy reviews here. While I have absolutely missed publishing new reviews some weeks, one of my goals for 2025 was to be as consistent as possible, and I think I did pretty darn well. Hopefully, I’ll expand a bit beyond just toy reviews in 2026. I’m imagining more sexy stories, tell alls and whatever else comes to mind in the moment. Having this outlet has felt really nice for a few reasons:
- grants me the ability to work even when I don’t feel up to being on camera
- encourages me expand my little empire in a way that feels natural
- relates to what I already do for work
- challenges me to practice writing more often
- opens doors to further collaborations with more toy brands
- allows me to buy from & support more indie toy companies
- increases my income without stressing myself out
Professional growth and accomplishments are great, but I like to imagine that you don’t just care about that stuff. I like to believe that you also want to know about me as an individual. 2025 was the first year I spent entirely living in a different country! I’ve spent a semester abroad, but that was back in college and I never planned to stay in Australia beyond the program I was in. This move though? I have zero plans to return to the US permanently. I don’t really see why I should or would want to either. Life is much easier for me here in the Netherlands!
Sure, it’s not all sunshine & rainbows & happiness. There’s also loneliness, isolation, seasonal depression, and the occasional below freezing temperatures. The bureaucracy of living here was far easier than I expected, with minimal paperwork and appointments. I’m sure that will change when I apply for permanent citizenship or residency, but that’s still several years down the line.
My typical day to day has changed significantly though. I almost always leave the house every day, something that couldn’t be said when I was living in the US. I don’t have a car or drivers license, so I walk almost everywhere and rely heavily on public transportation for distances that are just too far for me to walk. I almost never rely on taxis or rideshares, unless I’m in a city I don’t know and can’t figure out their transit system. It’s really nice and has helped me feel a lot healthier, plus I think my legs and ass are looking fantastic. My wife bought me a bicycle for Christmas, so I’m hoping that my legs & ass will further improve in 2026.
I feel so much happier here, even on my lowest days. I like to attribute this to taking better care of myself, challenging myself mentally & physically, and being married to someone who truly understands me & my needs. Though it was a big struggle, I found myself just letting go of a lot of the control I held onto when I was living in the US. My stress levels have dropped, my happiness has improved, and parts of me that I thought would be with me forever have sort of melted away.
Which, has all led me to start dating! I haven’t been on many dates, but I’ve had 5 first dates in the first year of living here in the Netherlands. Of those 5 people I went on first dates with, I had second dates with 4 of them, third dates with 3 of them, and more than 3 dates with just 2 of them. I’m down to only seeing one of the 5 people I went on dates with, and he’s a really good boy. So good that I even wrote my first sex story in ages about one of our nights spent together!
Our first year living in the Netherlands was a bit tight, financially speaking. I had anticipated that, as I worked really hard to raise enough money to get us here, but not enough to have a strong safety net. Even with my dedication to frugality, I was able to work on regrowing our safety net a little bit plus have some money to do a little bit of traveling! My wife & I went to Brussels and Paris, and then I went to Paris a second time with one of my long term partners. As much as I love my long term partner, I have to admit that Paris was much more fun when I went with my wife! We got to meet up with some of our American friends, Kaiia Eve & Brooke Johnson, and it was everything I wanted my first ever trip to Paris to be and more. I will treasure those memories for years & years to come.
Now that 2026 is less than a week away, I feel excited and determined. I don’t know exactly what 2026 holds for me, but I’m hoping to achieve the goals I’ve mentioned earlier in this post, plus a few others:
- attending adult industry conventions, tradeshows, meetups, etc
- film more content for my YouTube, including more reviews, vlogs, try-ons, and hopefully adding some travel & long form content too
- write at least 1x in-depth sex toy guide
- practice my Dutch more often
- read more books
- make more local friends
- visit at least 2x cities I’ve never visited before
I may feel a bit overwhelmed or daunted by the list, but I also really believe in myself for the first time in ages. I feel empowered and confident. Leaving the US was the best thing I’ve ever done for myself and for my marriage, because I finally feel free to be me.
I hope that you’re ready to take the journey of 2026 with me! Let’s make the year even better, together.
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