This is the first year I won’t be attending Fetish Con since I went the very first time. It was a really hard decision to make, but it was time for Me to take a break.

So far, I’ve shuffled around a lot in 2015. I made a very big move (mainly emotionally. I only moved across town physically). I started a new day job that I quickly burnt out on and left. I started another day job (until I make as much money as a sex worker as I make at my day job, I will continue to work. I love the luxury lifestyle I’ve grown accustomed to). Blah blah blah. Long story short, Fetish Con just isn’t in the cards for me.

My partner and I talked at length. The past two years just haven’t been good business moves for me. I used to leave Fetish Con with ridiculous amounts of cash. RIDICULOUS AMOUNTS. It was glorious… then the last two years, I’ve had so many paid and trade cancellations that I’ve ended up paying for the trip (not even breaking even). Yea, I know I’ve cancelled trade shoots, so I can’t say that I’m perfect, but I’ve at least cancelled. Some people just never responded to texts or emails. So I could go, spend $1000+ for food, hotel, drinks, etc… or… I could do what I am going to do: Long weekend on some island in the Caribbean with My partner. Sure I can technically write it off, but I’m so set in My ways that going for fun just didn’t appeal at all. I want to go and I want to work. I’m not that much of a party girl, and My drinking has grown less frequent since moving into the new house. I didn’t even go into the dungeon last year, so saying I can go and play is super unlikely. So yea… a party/play weekend just doesn’t really appeal to Me.

It’s not anyone or anything specific that made the last two years so unenjoyable for Me. Sure, there was drama but there is always drama at such a high intensity event. It comes down to losing money on the event, not wanting to party that way, not having work there (either trade or paid), and the preference to take a proper vacation instead of driving 2 hours west for a “faux cation.”

I’ll miss everyone at Fetish Con, and I’m sure I’ll miss meeting all sorts of new and awesome people, but I need a year off. Fetish Con needs to become an enjoyable experience for Me again, rather than My current negative view.